a big day with not a lot to do...

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My mom, dad, brother, grandma and grandfather (all are carl and corole)
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
yesterday, my dad chewed me out...
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
umm idk its handwriting... its not like "wow, look how i made that 't'"
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
turkey breast... sliced and diced
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
expecting a baby boy!!
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
of course! i would go on a tv show to be bffs with me (like paris)
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
it depends on the day and what mood im in.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS
yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
i would love to!!
10. WHAT IS YOUR favorite CEREAL?
LUCKY CHARMS!!
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
yes. because i retie them when i put them on and i cant stand when ppl break the backs of their shoes..
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Theres strong, then theres ARMY STRONG hooah!!
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
nutty buttys
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT SOMEONE?
their hair, their teeth, and what theyre wearing
15. RED OR PINK?
red, its so BAM
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
that im shy, it makes me seem stuck up and i also loose opportunities cuz of it
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Nana banana rip
18. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
black
19. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
idk im always eating
20. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW ?
the beautiful sounds of my keyboard
21.IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
almond
22. FAVORITE SMELLS?
guys AX, mistletoe kisses
23. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
josh, well fell asleep txtin him
24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
penguins!! whoop whoop
25. HAIR COLOR?
my natural is dirty blonde, however i color it and its cappuccino
26. EYE COLOR?
hazel, mainly green
27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
on special occasions
28. FAVORITE FOOD?
rare steak, crab legs and pizza
29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
depends. im not a sucker for sappy movies
30. LAST MOVIE WATCHED?
the traveling pants 2
31 WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
RED!
32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter
33. HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs, they mean so much more, and after a rough day a hug is just so calming
34. FAVORITE DESSERT?
hersheys chocolate pie
35. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
the quran
37. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
THE SIMPSONS season 9
38. FAVORITE SOUND?
electric guitar
39. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
this is a toughy
40. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
kansas? or florida? not sure which is considered farther
41. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
yes...

popcicle sticks and wax strips

what an eventful night! i let one of my girl friends wax me.
*ok right there you know BIG MISTAKE*
miss mydock bought the professional waxing kit (so it wasnt one of those microwavable ones BIG DIFFERENCE) so i figured id let her wax me (my legs, wasnt tryin anything else). Not that she's bad at it, but it was a very painful experience! yes, we did take pictures :)
it was very akward, not to mention i was in this dress thing and cant lay down on my belly like you normally would. so she got a nice butt shot. its a good thing we're good friends. i was in the most akward positions. AND THEN I POPPED A HIP lol. now i feel like im 80.
needless to say you may not be able to picture this if u dont know me n serena very well, however, if you do youre def picturin' this and totally embarrased for me. lol

it was a fun girls night though

painful.. very painful. shes not touching nething else. DONT DO IT. and you people that get anything else waxed are NUTS!
But now my legs are nice and smooth. But sore and red still.

i just dont know *please comment*

how come everytime i blog i just seem to think abbas... i dont get it. maybe its cuz he changed my life tremendously. i dont know and i know it probably gets annoying but i just cant help it. i talked to him again today and we are getting along much better. he actually seems to be getting excited cuz 'im gin to georgia' Well i havnt actually made my decision yet. im leanin towards no, but when i think about it with noone elses opinion my choice is 'savannah here i come.'
this is why i dont want to leave
- i just got the rm position and i feel like if i say yes ill screw the lighthouse over
*however i know that i cant let that make me say no, but i feel so guilty

-i can transfer my americore place
*however i like the lighthouse

-im scared ill have the baby by myself
*ima strong woman, i can handle it plus i can have a friend come down

-what if its not his
*ill still be in ga where jay is

-it will be akward for him to talk to other girls
*i have to be okay with that sometime

-i still love him
*that scares me

-hes excited and ok with me not working
*is he having thoughts about us?

-IM SO CONFUSED!!! a lot of me says go down. however if i come back to pa i woulnt have a job to return to and thats why i really dont wanna go... BUT I REALLY DO WANNA GO

*it will be great for my son, to be near dad... but i dont have to be 'with' his dad

my gut my head and my heart are leading toward yes
my friends and my job are leadin me towards no

***********big thing***************

even if i do go, i will be in pa quite a bit. i got april, may, n june cuz of a friend gettin married that ill be in pa!!

so ill b here quite a bit and my friends n family are here so its not like im never gonna visit. and im gonna have quite a bit o time on my hands so ill be calling everyone

'This is why im hot'

this is why im hot.. i hot cuz im fly, you aint cuz you NOT.....
this is why im hot *just keep reading now that u hopefully have the song in your head*
I am who i am, you dont like it.. i dont give a *dang*

no but seriously... i hate all these fake people. the ones who try to be gangster but really live on a farm n ride horses all day. The ones who act all big and bad but come home and play with Mr Snuggles their new puppy. The ones who lie to feel like theyre fitting in.

So this is why im 'hot'
im fly. lol nah. im me, and i dont care. im not mean, not ignorant, not judgemental, not fake, obviously flawed, not superficial. i love to shop but only buy cheap stuff, im a bargain hunter. im random as all heck. i try to improve myself daily. i attempt to go to church (i find every reason not to go..like im too tired), i work A LOT, im very close with my brother, im one of the best friends someone could have (not being full of myself) but i am im always there to lean on, i hate to say no.

ALTHOUGH
i get cranky, i need my hershey pie, if my bathroom is gross i tweak, my car falls off, i have add, im very random (that can be a very good or bad thing) i dont have the patience like i used to, i lose my keys and purse at least 3 timesa day, but most of these are temporary and should go away come february. i am terrible with names (always been like that, dont get offended) im bad with faces. ill know something about u before i know you to see you.

yeah so thats probthe most random blog ever. im going to bed i have to be up in 7 hours... man i cant wait to just sleep for a whole day. <-- thats the crankiness im talkin about.

the bonton

so i tried to get fired from the bonton the other day. it didnt work. dang them! i was to work 8am to 5pm. thats a crazy long shift. like i said in an earlier blog i have no idea why i am working there again. so i fell asleep crazy late, i went out the night before and watched most of baby mamma. then went home to sleep n my kid kept kickin. needless to say i didnt go to sleep til very late. i slept til 8 (serena woke me up) and fell right back asleep. i ended up going into work at 1pm with the hormones raging and like i freakin have to go to work... i was just like cant they just fire me and let me go home i just WANT TO SLEEP.
my bed and blanket have become my best friends.
however needless to say the managers did not fire me. and now i still work 2maro until 9pm. redic!!!
why cant they just fire me already, i mean i need the cash but standing for 8 hours just isnt for me, maybe if theyd let me sit.

my latest offer...

i got a text the other day... from Abbas. i was shocked, suprised, nervous and happy all at the same time, but mainly nervous. "why is he calling me?" we havnt talked for a crazy long time. so i was confused... *yikes* he started asking me random questions. all weird and i still didnt get his point. but he finally got to the point and asked me if id move to georgia. SAVANNAH its freakin gorgeous down there. however living with your ex-fiance would be kinda akward. i mean we'd get along and have seperate bedrooms. but idk. itd be good for my son. akward for me but my son comes first and like i said it would be good for him. so idk. i still have awhile to decide.

the BONTON

yes, its THE bonton.
wow so i work there right. that was my first job the week i turned 16. worked there til february 2007. QUIT. was happy. i liked my management (well except for 2). i liked the staff. i hated the pay. hated the merchandise. actually i dont remember anything i really liked. i just went, it was work.
ok so i was done and i was happy. well like 2 months ago i decided "i need a parttime job" hmm what an idea let me tell you.

needless to say, guess where my job is... the BONTON. and for christmas season... EXCUSE ME, the holiday season (cant say christmas)

so now i have to get ready, i work 9 45 - 1 something in missies.

rare steak and popeys chicken

yumm... steak nice and bloody... yummm.... popeyes chicken... yum...

so i decided to buy steak the other week at walmart, cuz goin out n ordering it is just getting too expensive and i just crave it all too much.
WELL... im picky i dont like fat (its utterly disgusting and if i put it in my mouth i gag) but i attempted to cook it n it just didnt work. i

AAAHHHH!!!

this stupid stupid car!!! grr!!! do you know that I had to jump it 3 times today... i had to wake bri up at 7 somethin, then i got off work at 2:25 and had a marine jump me. then the thing locked up on me, i couldnt turn the wheel and push in the break. my bro met me (wow was i suprised) n hes usually a jerk to me but he fixed it. and then told me i was leaking antifreeze (and i am, well the car is). so hopefully it stops. but yeah that is my vent. i hate my car. and i mean i appreciate it, but it makes me so MAD!!! grr

on a happy note.. i bought an elmer fudd hat!! woo! it plaid!!

baby shower <3

wow.. now i really cant wait for my son to get here. Saturday was my baby shower. I was quite nervous. I dont like everyones attention on me, just like public speaking YUCK. so i was very anxious. MY GIRLS ARE AMAZING!
everything looked cute and the cake was delicious. it was nice to see a lot of my family there. some of them are very supportive and others dont mention it. I want to thank everyone for everything. Everyones been so helpful.
*but apparently bumber pads can cause SIDS*---- isnt that just weird to think about.
mom is getting much better and is quite helpful... but dad (nevermind, i could go on 4 hours).
but it was fun and nice to see the family again, some i havnt seen since b4 i left for basic *yikes* the food was delicious and it was fun, i munched quite a bit. ps i did get heartburn from my mothers chicken.