wow...

wow christmas. i always get so excited cuz i get to see my family. hmm... why... i wonder... i cant seem to figure it out, cuz my dad just sits there and makes faces, immediatly pissed off because im here. well im done. i dont know wat to do anymore. its christmas, at least return a hello. i said hi, and all he does is put on a pissed off face. ITS CHRISTMAS for gods sake just at least give a fake hello.
well ill blog how it goes... its only christmas eve. this will be interesting.

Sex and the City

so youve watched sex and the city right... well sometimes that seems like my life.
well before i lost my major social life... but i still have one
but i watch it, and just realize wow.. i should so be on here. exvept id be the virginal one, but having a very interesting dark side. not like a bad person but you know.
its very interesting to me, the way women work. we are weird, obsessive, jealous, compolsive, have to be perfect, try and hide all our flaws, the list could just go on and on...
but we females are another species. i remember 'playing' the guys. dressing a little edgy. going to the bar and just misbehaving.
i talk about it like it was years ago... lol well only months.
i know i talk about men like im discussing a movie. i know im complicated as all heck

i dont like guys that like me; i want to have to work for a mans affection. meaning i want him to experience the whole and real me before even sayin he likes me. if he likes me before he does its an automatic no go. i dont want things easy, and he dont know the full coplicated me that shows me: he is not picky and does not choose wisely.

a man watches a girl, talks with a girl, then can fall for here. i mean sure there is some lust at first sight, but i want to create that lust. i want a man i can show 'wow i wanna be with her' not a 'shes hot i wanna hit that' NO GO! i do not want an ignorant slob..

i cant lie, i can talk trashier than a man about a man im eyein up (eye candy) but just because hes hot and id love to see his body does NOT mean im bout to 'pounce on him' ima wait watch him for a bit (not stockerish and not obvious) look at his expression. is he looking talkative, sexual, pissed? i usually go for the 2nd one. not for the reason y oure probably thinking. but a man that is too talkative will never let me get a word in or listen to my opinion. hes a pissy man, hes just gonna make me upset and feel like i always gotta please him, but if hes sexual, you can tame a sexual man. Sexual men usually want to always please a woman (not talkin sex) but the want to see you pleased, happy, content. you can teach them to respect you as in your wishes (no sex before marriage, engagement, whatever)

but thats all for now. i have xmas at my house 2maro and need to get cleaning

christmas (stole from beth)

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
wrapping paper
2. Real tree or Artificial?
real, no one likes fake things...
5. Do you like eggnog?
gross
6. Favorite gift received as a child?
not sure, i was always appreciative n loved everything
7. Hardest person to buy for?
my br0
8. Easiest person to buy for?
serena
9. Do you have a nativity scene?
of course, except jesus looks misshapen
10. Mail or email Christmas cards?
i always fill them out and always forget to mail them!!!
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
ugh when i was 16 my aunt got me this pony shirt (like an 8 yr old would wear) my mom MADE me WEAR IT!!!
12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
the grinch stole xmas
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?
the week b4 xmas
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
dont think so...
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?
everything!
16. Lights on the tree?
of course
17. Favorite Christmas song?
its cold outside, its so seductive
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?
home, well travel to the parents and grandparents lol
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's?
of course!!!
20. Angel on the tree-top or star?
star, from the DG lol (dollar general)
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or Christmas morning?
morning.. well technically eve cuz id sneak out and open some
22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?
its cold
23. Favorite ornament theme or color?
no. i like random
24. Favorite food for Christmas dinner?
turkey or chicken
25. What do you want for Christmas this year?
nothing for me. just stuff for my son (bottles! breast feeding stuff)