being a mom is AMAZING. i love every single part of it. mainly i love the unconditional love that i have for Damen. i never know i could love someone so much. he will be 4 months on the 3rd. growing up so fast! :)
though i hate having him go to the sitters. what if he gets hurt? what if he crys? what if he just wants mom and im no where around? all of these are things i think about as i work or get daily tasks done without 'D' man by my side. However the little break is very nice and refreshing! i will not lie lol.
i miss his newbornness but i am also enjoying this almost fun time stage. i love that he reaches for things, rolls over, holds a bottle, and swings on a swing. i get sad, mad, just upset overall that his father misses all this. secretly i dont want him in daycare cuz what if he crawls for the first time and im not there. how can i miss that!? but his father misses all of this. its not his fault, i will say that. he is stationed in GA so i dont get mad at him, but i feel bad that he doesnt get to enjoy this time. idk...
i would never change anything in the world about being a mom. i love it. its hard work, and quite expensive but i enjoy every part of it.
