scandalous <3

so i have been thinking reciently.. and i am starting to realize i have become quite scandalous. not in a bad public kind of way, but more in the BOY department. i say boy because i have yet to meet a MAN. now this isnt a good thing, but it isnt quite bad either. im just being the same that guys have done to me, except not so bad. sure, you can have my number, take me to get some drinks, BUT we do stuff on my terms. *please note, these are not the good hearted caring boys* ill answer my phone if i want to answer and ill hang out with you when i feel like it. i dont show affection and i ask for it.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT...

Now, they want to. they want to be the good guy. they act a little nicer and show a little more affection. its amazing what happens and how that works.

its amazing how it works this way. a woman i highly look up to taught me this. she said 'carla, youll be suprised what rejection does to people. guys can dish it out, but they cant handle when its done to them.' WHAT A WISE WOMAN.

right now i am working on myself. i am becoming a better person, messin up here and there but im learning from it. i dont want a boy. i want a man. a man who will treat me well and i woulnt settle for less!

scandalous.