'This is why im hot'

this is why im hot.. i hot cuz im fly, you aint cuz you NOT.....
this is why im hot *just keep reading now that u hopefully have the song in your head*
I am who i am, you dont like it.. i dont give a *dang*

no but seriously... i hate all these fake people. the ones who try to be gangster but really live on a farm n ride horses all day. The ones who act all big and bad but come home and play with Mr Snuggles their new puppy. The ones who lie to feel like theyre fitting in.

So this is why im 'hot'
im fly. lol nah. im me, and i dont care. im not mean, not ignorant, not judgemental, not fake, obviously flawed, not superficial. i love to shop but only buy cheap stuff, im a bargain hunter. im random as all heck. i try to improve myself daily. i attempt to go to church (i find every reason not to go..like im too tired), i work A LOT, im very close with my brother, im one of the best friends someone could have (not being full of myself) but i am im always there to lean on, i hate to say no.

ALTHOUGH
i get cranky, i need my hershey pie, if my bathroom is gross i tweak, my car falls off, i have add, im very random (that can be a very good or bad thing) i dont have the patience like i used to, i lose my keys and purse at least 3 timesa day, but most of these are temporary and should go away come february. i am terrible with names (always been like that, dont get offended) im bad with faces. ill know something about u before i know you to see you.

yeah so thats probthe most random blog ever. im going to bed i have to be up in 7 hours... man i cant wait to just sleep for a whole day. <-- thats the crankiness im talkin about.

the bonton

so i tried to get fired from the bonton the other day. it didnt work. dang them! i was to work 8am to 5pm. thats a crazy long shift. like i said in an earlier blog i have no idea why i am working there again. so i fell asleep crazy late, i went out the night before and watched most of baby mamma. then went home to sleep n my kid kept kickin. needless to say i didnt go to sleep til very late. i slept til 8 (serena woke me up) and fell right back asleep. i ended up going into work at 1pm with the hormones raging and like i freakin have to go to work... i was just like cant they just fire me and let me go home i just WANT TO SLEEP.
my bed and blanket have become my best friends.
however needless to say the managers did not fire me. and now i still work 2maro until 9pm. redic!!!
why cant they just fire me already, i mean i need the cash but standing for 8 hours just isnt for me, maybe if theyd let me sit.

my latest offer...

i got a text the other day... from Abbas. i was shocked, suprised, nervous and happy all at the same time, but mainly nervous. "why is he calling me?" we havnt talked for a crazy long time. so i was confused... *yikes* he started asking me random questions. all weird and i still didnt get his point. but he finally got to the point and asked me if id move to georgia. SAVANNAH its freakin gorgeous down there. however living with your ex-fiance would be kinda akward. i mean we'd get along and have seperate bedrooms. but idk. itd be good for my son. akward for me but my son comes first and like i said it would be good for him. so idk. i still have awhile to decide.

the BONTON

yes, its THE bonton.
wow so i work there right. that was my first job the week i turned 16. worked there til february 2007. QUIT. was happy. i liked my management (well except for 2). i liked the staff. i hated the pay. hated the merchandise. actually i dont remember anything i really liked. i just went, it was work.
ok so i was done and i was happy. well like 2 months ago i decided "i need a parttime job" hmm what an idea let me tell you.

needless to say, guess where my job is... the BONTON. and for christmas season... EXCUSE ME, the holiday season (cant say christmas)

so now i have to get ready, i work 9 45 - 1 something in missies.

rare steak and popeys chicken

yumm... steak nice and bloody... yummm.... popeyes chicken... yum...

so i decided to buy steak the other week at walmart, cuz goin out n ordering it is just getting too expensive and i just crave it all too much.
WELL... im picky i dont like fat (its utterly disgusting and if i put it in my mouth i gag) but i attempted to cook it n it just didnt work. i

AAAHHHH!!!

this stupid stupid car!!! grr!!! do you know that I had to jump it 3 times today... i had to wake bri up at 7 somethin, then i got off work at 2:25 and had a marine jump me. then the thing locked up on me, i couldnt turn the wheel and push in the break. my bro met me (wow was i suprised) n hes usually a jerk to me but he fixed it. and then told me i was leaking antifreeze (and i am, well the car is). so hopefully it stops. but yeah that is my vent. i hate my car. and i mean i appreciate it, but it makes me so MAD!!! grr

on a happy note.. i bought an elmer fudd hat!! woo! it plaid!!

baby shower <3

wow.. now i really cant wait for my son to get here. Saturday was my baby shower. I was quite nervous. I dont like everyones attention on me, just like public speaking YUCK. so i was very anxious. MY GIRLS ARE AMAZING!
everything looked cute and the cake was delicious. it was nice to see a lot of my family there. some of them are very supportive and others dont mention it. I want to thank everyone for everything. Everyones been so helpful.
*but apparently bumber pads can cause SIDS*---- isnt that just weird to think about.
mom is getting much better and is quite helpful... but dad (nevermind, i could go on 4 hours).
but it was fun and nice to see the family again, some i havnt seen since b4 i left for basic *yikes* the food was delicious and it was fun, i munched quite a bit. ps i did get heartburn from my mothers chicken.