new years resolution... CHURCH

so i know everyone comes up with their resolutions before new years, but its after and i still have no clue.
almost everyone does diets, not eating this, not doing that.
but i dont need to diet (pregnant or not pregnant, its hard for me to get fat)
i dont really eat anything bad for me. i dont drink too much. GEez im almost like perfect. lol just kidding.
Maybe church. i should go more. i need to go more. its been quite awhile. but i only feel comfortable in a catholic church (sorry vern n dan). but catholics (and i can say this being one) are very judgemental. like you almost have to be perfect; god forbid if youre gay, or divorced or just not nose in the air. so im terrified to go to church pregnant and not married. woulda been married but thats another story all together. so i like sinned. and didnt confess my sin, but i aint going to. Thats like saying i shouldnt have had my baby. which yes, he was a SUPRISE, but not a regret. nothing that im going to apoligize for. nothing im going to call a sin.
you might hear me say 'youve heard of jesus, well this is his brother' its a joke, probably a bad one, but its just another way of me saying accept it. i dont regret my baby, maybe what happened but i love my end result.
anyways back to the church thing: this is a reason why i stray from church. you might ask then why be catholic, why not go to another church. my reply, modern church is weird for me. there is no modern day things in our church. years ago i had to stop being an alter server (aka alter BOY) because i wasnt a BOY. so im used to anything but modern. but maybe thats the mindset i need to get out of. RESOLUTIONS ARE SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO WORK AT RIGHT???
so maybe this really should be my resolution.
church of some sort of some religion.
maybe ill learn bout all religions, maybe ill end up buddist (doubt it but you get the point)
so writing this i came up with my late new years resolution.
have any ideas let me know!!